She is growing and learning so quickly. I can hardly keep up with all her changes. And now I find myself putting my needs to the side. (I think this is a common practice among 1st time moms.) Balance has always been hard for me and now I'm finding it really hard. Mainly due to guilt!
I feel guilty if I'm not spending every moment with her.
I feel guilty that I'm not doing my yoga practice.
I feel guilty that I'm not reading enough baby books.
I feel guilty that I haven't started my exercise program.
I feel guilty that I don't rock her to sleep for every nap.
I feel guilty that I want to teach one night a week.
I feel guilty that our dog isn't getting his daily walk.
I feel guilty that I haven't worked up new lesson plans.
I feel guilty that I don't want to learn how to cook.
I feel guilty that I'm on the computer right now writing this while my little one is on her play mat giggling away!
The guilt is overwhelming! And now I know that I have to come back to my practice is some way. Staying calm and just doing whatever I can to come back to the mat. I even put my mat in my bedroom so I could get up, roll it out and just salute the sun. Any little bit helps. It makes me feel accomplished. Like I did something for the day and that I'm not failing as a yogi, yoga teacher and mother.
You are doing great!! There are only so many hours in the day and your little one is only little for a short amount of time. So enjoy her and what ever else you can. By the way these are the things I feel guilty about:
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I feel guilty that I cannot pay my hubby enough attn.
I feel guilty that I'm not doing my yoga practice.
I feel guilty that our dogs are not getting any walks.
I feel guilty that I don't want to cook.
I feel guilty that I leave work as soon as I can and I never log on from home.
I feel guilty that I rarely see my friends.
I do feel great that she is growing steadily and is clearly a happy baby! That is all that really matters to me :)